The Past 12 Months Have Sucked… And Other Questions

I know I can’t be the only 20-something that worries about shit like this. Like, my life purpose. I’m constantly asking myself, What am I meant to be doing? What if I never find it? What if I end up wasting my whole life? What if I never contribute anything to the world? What if I’m never happy?

I’ve been what-if’ing myself to death. Understandably. This past year has been a series of upheavals, moves, transitions, and discoveries… I can say it hasn’t been my happiest year overall, but I think years from now I’ll look back and realize that this would end up to be one of the most important ones.

Why? I asked myself that too. What good could possibly come from all of this misery and confusion of the past 12 months? How could something positive come from feeling so lost? Thankfully I was inspired before I decided to off myself in the hopes of a better set-up in my next reincarnation, like being a princess instead of some chick from Florida.

These times in our lives where everything ahead of us seems murky and uncertain with undertones of doom, it’s important for us to realize that those negative thoughts are nothing but our ego trying to distract us from the truth... The truth being that we are all being guided and taken care of by a power that is far greater than we can even imagine!

The more that we remind ourselves of this each day, the safer that we’re going to feel… which means we’re probably not going to smoke that blunt, drink that alcohol or soothe our anxiety with chocolate cake because we won’t need that external stuff to relax and feel good! So if we’re not putting those physical toxins into our body, we’re going to be much more conscious, creative and attentive to our spiritual condition. If we’re more in tune with our spiritual side, it is inevitable that inspiration will strike us.

As a writer, pianist, and Yogini, and just as a creative person in general, I’ve come to see inspiration as something that is with ALL of us at ALL times. It’s like a little bubble of light floating next to our hearts 24 hours a day, and the only thing keeping us from accessing that information is our ability to actually notice that it’s there!

I don’t see inspiration, creativity or even inner peace as something that needs to be striven for or earned like a certificate. I don’t need to try and deserve the discovery of my life’s purpose, and neither do you. There’s not some great power in the sky keeping us from fulfillment until it thinks that we have suffered enough to fully enjoy it.

Discovering what makes us happy and how we’re meant to help those around us is a matter of time, gentle persistence and looking for the best in every situation. It’s about daily meditation and quiet reflection on all that is good within us and everyone around us. I think a little bit of contrast and pain is good too, because it pushes us to look deeper into life. But the more that we tune into our spiritual lives, the less we will need to suffer to wake up to our inspiration, and the more that our questions will be answered and I hope – no, I believe- that our paths will become clear before us.

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Now I want to hear from you so I don’t feel completely crazy and alone! 
What has your last year been like? 
Have there been a lot of sad or challenging moments? 
Has something positive come from them? 
Leave your comments below and let’s start an open conversation about this!