But accepting myself, my past, my character defects and everyone around me... when I was told that was the way to true serenity, I wanted to run very far away. Until recently, it seemed to me that I was too horrible of a person, that the things I had done were too bad, to ever be fully faced, let alone shared with another human being. So I drank and used, to not have to look at all of that.
2013 has brought me magnificent changes in my body, mind and spirit. I've continued to work the Steps in Alcoholics Anonymous and now Al-Anon as well. I surf and write and play and work... and I have fallen deeply in love in a way that I did not think was possible.