I want joy, and I want to be of service to others. But where is the line drawn? When am I just torturing myself and pushing myself too hard? But when am I merely giving up when it would be better to persevere? I want to believe that God Is Everything, In Everyone, but why is there so much pain and angst? Can't He give me a break?
2013 has brought me magnificent changes in my body, mind and spirit. I've continued to work the Steps in Alcoholics Anonymous and now Al-Anon as well. I surf and write and play and work... and I have fallen deeply in love in a way that I did not think was possible.