All Right Anyway
Every once in a while I wonder what my life would be like if I hadn't gotten sober. And stayed sober. Would I be alive? Would I be in Florida attending university? Would I have a boyfriend? How often would I be drinking? Would I still be doing drugs? Would I still hate the ex-boyfriend that abused me and then got with my best friend? Would I still be depressed and suicidal and unstimulated in all ways?
Well, I'm just going to move on now and be glad I don't know the answers to those questions, and hopefully never will. Because all that matters is the present moment, and right now I am sober! Nowadays life has a beat and a rhythm; a special beauty that I know I could have only found in a 12-Step program.
It's a new year, and there are a lot of habits I have that I really want to change. I want to have more courage, and I want to be more patient, and more respectful. I want to think of others first, and be more of service. I think that's my purpose in this life: to help others. My greatest, deepest, realest, truest desire, the desire that resides in the very depths of my soul, is to connect with other people and know that we are all one, and all equal. My greatest wish is to be in competition with no one, and to share love with all on equal footing. I want to see others, and myself, for who we really are: Divine beings, whose "mistakes" I believe God must laugh at, because I feel like He knows there really isn't anything ever wrong, because all is well, and everything is going to turn out all right anyway.
"The keys to patience are acceptance and faith. Accept things as they are, and look realistically at the world around you. Have faith in yourself and in the direction you have chosen." -- Ralph Marston
Well, I'm just going to move on now and be glad I don't know the answers to those questions, and hopefully never will. Because all that matters is the present moment, and right now I am sober! Nowadays life has a beat and a rhythm; a special beauty that I know I could have only found in a 12-Step program.
It's a new year, and there are a lot of habits I have that I really want to change. I want to have more courage, and I want to be more patient, and more respectful. I want to think of others first, and be more of service. I think that's my purpose in this life: to help others. My greatest, deepest, realest, truest desire, the desire that resides in the very depths of my soul, is to connect with other people and know that we are all one, and all equal. My greatest wish is to be in competition with no one, and to share love with all on equal footing. I want to see others, and myself, for who we really are: Divine beings, whose "mistakes" I believe God must laugh at, because I feel like He knows there really isn't anything ever wrong, because all is well, and everything is going to turn out all right anyway.
"The keys to patience are acceptance and faith. Accept things as they are, and look realistically at the world around you. Have faith in yourself and in the direction you have chosen." -- Ralph Marston
