I never want to drink again; I want to surrender to God. I can only hope, with God's grace, that the voice in my head that tells me I can control my drinking will go away soon. Because damn, it is convincing! But "the glow" that people in AA have, the kindness they have shown me in this short amount of time, is even more convincing than my unruly mind. Not to mention how much more energy and how much healthier I'm going to be not drinking three or four times a week...
From The Author
Welcome to my first 6 months of sobriety! What an exciting and whirlwind time in my life it was, and I look back upon it with fondness. Although I am very glad to be past those incredibly challenging and painful first few months. The only thing I would have done differently was started working the Steps right away instead of waiting!