One Of those Days
I'm beginning to recognize that others will often behave and do things differently than I want them to. When I accept and eventually appreciate that fact instead of trying to change or manipulate them, I will know great peace. When someone does or says something I think I would have done differently, I can turn to God and remind myself that my Higher Power is in everything and everyone.
Who am I to judge?
I was once that person that couldn't stop using, eating, spending, hooking up... No one is meant to behave exactly like me, just as it is the other way around. Every day I ask my God to help me accept everyone as they are in this moment, so I may enjoy everyone and myself more too! I don't like being judgmental, impatient or unkind. I want to see every person and every situation as God does -- an incarnation of love, and evolution in action.
Of course, that's the ideal... I don't often reach that, honestly. I'm really upset right now actually because I feel like my boss disrespected me this morning in front of a lot of people, and was blaming me for something that I didn't even do. I'm literally burning with anger in this moment, and I feel like punching a wall (or my boss.) But I'm not going to because I know that this is alcoholic thinking, and my mind is warped right now.
As humans, (and especially as alcoholics, recovering or otherwise) we are all sick and frequently wrong. We have all been through a lot of pain and hardship, and we're all doing our best all the time. Knowing that alcoholism is a disease, I hope to learn to treat everyone with as much patience, understanding and kindness as I can with my Higher Power's help.
I can't control others! There is nothing I can do or say to control another to make the situation safer for me. I am not protecting myself by manipulating, I am only causing more hurt. My Higher Power is in charge and I can trust Him!
Okay, I feel better.
Who am I to judge?
I was once that person that couldn't stop using, eating, spending, hooking up... No one is meant to behave exactly like me, just as it is the other way around. Every day I ask my God to help me accept everyone as they are in this moment, so I may enjoy everyone and myself more too! I don't like being judgmental, impatient or unkind. I want to see every person and every situation as God does -- an incarnation of love, and evolution in action.
Of course, that's the ideal... I don't often reach that, honestly. I'm really upset right now actually because I feel like my boss disrespected me this morning in front of a lot of people, and was blaming me for something that I didn't even do. I'm literally burning with anger in this moment, and I feel like punching a wall (or my boss.) But I'm not going to because I know that this is alcoholic thinking, and my mind is warped right now.
As humans, (and especially as alcoholics, recovering or otherwise) we are all sick and frequently wrong. We have all been through a lot of pain and hardship, and we're all doing our best all the time. Knowing that alcoholism is a disease, I hope to learn to treat everyone with as much patience, understanding and kindness as I can with my Higher Power's help.
I can't control others! There is nothing I can do or say to control another to make the situation safer for me. I am not protecting myself by manipulating, I am only causing more hurt. My Higher Power is in charge and I can trust Him!
Okay, I feel better.
