Seeing God Everywhere
Okay, I have so much on my To-Do List right now I can barely sit still, but I set aside a few minutes to begin Step 12, and to write this post.
How did my life become so full? I'm six months into living in Hawai'i, and almost 1 year sober, and somehow I am now working on a farm, and as a horseback trail guide, and for my auntie's business doing secretarial, legal and inventory work. I have finished a novel and have an idea for the next in the series, as well as several other books. I am also studying a course to be a certified Ayurvedic Health Counselor, I'm doing a month-long 200 hr yoga teacher training in March, and I'm a published writer in several magazines. I'm also an intern at Elephant Journal, as of today!!!
A year ago, I was in school and I had a lot of friends, but I didn't really do much else. I did minimal school work, and I mostly just hung out. I worked on my book some, but not very diligently and not very well, honestly. I've always had a dream of becoming a writer, of becoming a better person, but I wasn't doing anything to follow my heart. I really wasn't! I was just floating along with no realized purpose.
Well, I have released some of the grip I had on my life, and now my Higher Power has flung me into the fourth dimension, into a level of existence I couldn't have imagined! Every moment is not hunky-dory (I'm on a bit of a high from the new horse job and working at Elephant Journal), I have many times where I am angry and fearful. But there are so many more moments where a deep peace and knowing that all is well settles into my bones like warm bathwater, soothing me.
I was at the ranch today, one hand tugging on a girth and the other swatting away a nippy horse, when I looked up and saw that the wet forest wind was whipping through the tall white trees surrounding the valley. Pale green leaves were showering down from the slim, sloping branches, falling in and out of thick tubes of sunlight breaking in through the shuddering canopy. I saw God in that moment, I think maybe for the first time consciously. Then, for the rest of the day, I was suddenly seeing God everywhere! I don't know how to describe it any better, except for the people and situations that normally would have made me fearful and angry... just didn't.
Thank you, Alcoholics Anonymous, and the 12 Steps for bringing me peace... even if it only is just for today; that's all that matters. All I have for sure is the present, and I'm grateful for that.
Now back to work for me! Have a beautiful weekend.
How did my life become so full? I'm six months into living in Hawai'i, and almost 1 year sober, and somehow I am now working on a farm, and as a horseback trail guide, and for my auntie's business doing secretarial, legal and inventory work. I have finished a novel and have an idea for the next in the series, as well as several other books. I am also studying a course to be a certified Ayurvedic Health Counselor, I'm doing a month-long 200 hr yoga teacher training in March, and I'm a published writer in several magazines. I'm also an intern at Elephant Journal, as of today!!!
A year ago, I was in school and I had a lot of friends, but I didn't really do much else. I did minimal school work, and I mostly just hung out. I worked on my book some, but not very diligently and not very well, honestly. I've always had a dream of becoming a writer, of becoming a better person, but I wasn't doing anything to follow my heart. I really wasn't! I was just floating along with no realized purpose.
Well, I have released some of the grip I had on my life, and now my Higher Power has flung me into the fourth dimension, into a level of existence I couldn't have imagined! Every moment is not hunky-dory (I'm on a bit of a high from the new horse job and working at Elephant Journal), I have many times where I am angry and fearful. But there are so many more moments where a deep peace and knowing that all is well settles into my bones like warm bathwater, soothing me.
I was at the ranch today, one hand tugging on a girth and the other swatting away a nippy horse, when I looked up and saw that the wet forest wind was whipping through the tall white trees surrounding the valley. Pale green leaves were showering down from the slim, sloping branches, falling in and out of thick tubes of sunlight breaking in through the shuddering canopy. I saw God in that moment, I think maybe for the first time consciously. Then, for the rest of the day, I was suddenly seeing God everywhere! I don't know how to describe it any better, except for the people and situations that normally would have made me fearful and angry... just didn't.
Thank you, Alcoholics Anonymous, and the 12 Steps for bringing me peace... even if it only is just for today; that's all that matters. All I have for sure is the present, and I'm grateful for that.
Now back to work for me! Have a beautiful weekend.