I want to be free. I'll do anything to have peace, serenity, and happiness. I've gotten a taste of that in recovery, but I know to continue on I must face the pain. It is like a daunting mountain in me, but I'm going to muster all the faith, all the strength, and all the courage that I have to trust in my God that I will be taken care of, and that everything is going to turn out okay, no matter what horrors I may have repressed.
I spent this winter on Kaua'i, and survived Thanksgiving, Christmas and Easter without taking a single drink! I enjoyed delicious Ayurvedic meals, surfed on Thanksgiving Day and went through plenty of realizations and transformations. It was one of the happiest seasons of my life so far.